This last week has really pushed me to limits I rarely explore - in good and bad terms, Alhamdulillah.
It has showed me weakness but definitely also some strenght I didnt really know I had.
The fact that my family and I got so sick just before my travel, was really fustrating. Our family has not settled down completely, so there was really big emotions to handel. I didnt have the chance to be with my kids as much as I wanted and I didnt had a chance to finish all the cores around the house, as I had in mind.
So I came back to Denmark, and just had a couple of days to take care of some practical things before staring up my study. Now I have anxiety. I dont like to be in new places, starting new things up that are out of my comfort zone ( and this teacher thing is way out of my comfortzone) and definitely not being around so many people I dont know.. let alone the fact that I have to talk to them!!!
But you know what? everything turned out just fine. My kids are back to health and doing just fine, and my homecores are not running anywhere. Starting up education, talking to people I dont know wasn´t really that scary. Alhamdulillah I just had to take the first 1-2 steps and Allah made the rest easy.
This is what tawwakul is all about. Tie you camel and trust Allah in the rest. We have to move, we have to make an effort to show that we are serious and then Allah will help us.
As I mentioned before, then the thought of being a teacher is very far away from my comfortzone. I have never seen my self as a proper person to teach anyone anything. I find my comfort in the healthcare system, as a nurse, in dentalcare- you name it... but a teacher, no so much. So why study to become a teacher.
Teaching is something absolutely beautiful. You have the chance of helping kids becoming the best version of them self. And in teaching, there are so many directions to go as well. You dont have to end up on a Danish puplic school. You can travel the world to conflictzones and help the kids there getting education, and strong rolemodels just by giving them love and confort. So with all these opportunity in mind, I applied and got admitted. I even had to take and extra test to qualify and I got trough.
In the whole process Iv had this feeling that Allah was trying to push me in this direction. I still struggle with picture my self being a teacher, but I think I just have to let this thought go. In 4 years from now I will hardly be the person I am now. So I will take this education as a tool to growth and in sha Allah shape me into the muslimah and person I wish to be.
It has showed me weakness but definitely also some strenght I didnt really know I had.
The fact that my family and I got so sick just before my travel, was really fustrating. Our family has not settled down completely, so there was really big emotions to handel. I didnt have the chance to be with my kids as much as I wanted and I didnt had a chance to finish all the cores around the house, as I had in mind.
So I came back to Denmark, and just had a couple of days to take care of some practical things before staring up my study. Now I have anxiety. I dont like to be in new places, starting new things up that are out of my comfort zone ( and this teacher thing is way out of my comfortzone) and definitely not being around so many people I dont know.. let alone the fact that I have to talk to them!!!
But you know what? everything turned out just fine. My kids are back to health and doing just fine, and my homecores are not running anywhere. Starting up education, talking to people I dont know wasn´t really that scary. Alhamdulillah I just had to take the first 1-2 steps and Allah made the rest easy.
This is what tawwakul is all about. Tie you camel and trust Allah in the rest. We have to move, we have to make an effort to show that we are serious and then Allah will help us.
O messenger of Allah, Should I tie my camel and trust in Allah
or should I untie her and trust in Allah.
The messenger (peace and blessings be upon him) said; Tie her and trust in Allah
~ Tirmidhi
As I mentioned before, then the thought of being a teacher is very far away from my comfortzone. I have never seen my self as a proper person to teach anyone anything. I find my comfort in the healthcare system, as a nurse, in dentalcare- you name it... but a teacher, no so much. So why study to become a teacher.
In the whole process Iv had this feeling that Allah was trying to push me in this direction. I still struggle with picture my self being a teacher, but I think I just have to let this thought go. In 4 years from now I will hardly be the person I am now. So I will take this education as a tool to growth and in sha Allah shape me into the muslimah and person I wish to be.
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