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Preparing to leave

I was really going to write this post yesterday, but instead I ended using half the day trying to buy air tickets.... Alhamdulillah I managed to get hold on them and my travel is now official

Time has gone by so quickly. Its already 3 months since I came back to morocco. 3 months where we have been preparing for our new life. Now time has come and it is time for me to leave to start my education. There is a lot to prepare, both here and in Denmark, and while trying to prepare everything I also need to be fully available for my family.

Emotions is running a bit high at the moment. Even if i'm only going to be away for around a month, it is still long time now when My baby is still small. My toddler to young to understand that mama is coming back soon, and the big once afraid that I Will end up stuck in Denmark long time like last year.
While i'm trying to cope with all the kids emotional break outs, I also have to control my own. Its really difficult to stay strong and to show a face that says "everything is gonna be fine, i'll be back before you know it", while the reality is that my inside is crumpling to pieces every time I think about travelling.

My feeling is very mixed up at the moment. I really don't want to leave, but I also somehow looking forward to nurse my self while being away. My body and mind has been beaten up  for the last 2+ years, with difficult deliveries, moving, traveling and emotional breakdowns, so I really believe that it is a good possibility for some self care, to bring back a mommy whos ready to meet the demands my family and life has for me.



Alhamdulillah now the midterms vacation has just started and the kids brought home their midterms grades yesterday. Proud to stay they are doing really well Allahumma barik.
The vacation Also brought rain and more cold With it, so for the next couple of days, we are doing family time indoors, ALhamdulillah.

 We pray that Allah will bring ease to us and our ummah Ameen
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