From my private notes

This last week has really pushed me to limits I rarely explore - in good and bad terms, Alhamdulillah. It has showed me weakness but definitely also some strenght I didnt really know I had. The fact that my family and I got so sick just before my travel, was really fustrating. Our family has not settled down completely, so there was really big emotions to handel. I didnt have the chance to be with my kids as much as I wanted and I didnt had a chance to finish all the cores around the house, as I had in mind. So I came back to Denmark, and just had a couple of days to take care of some practical things before staring up my study. Now I have anxiety. I dont like to be in new places, starting new things up that are out of my comfort zone ( and this teacher thing is way out of my comfortzone) and definitely not being around so many people I dont know.. let alone the fact that I have to talk to them!!! But you know what? everything turned out just fine. My kids are back to health

I was really going to write this post yesterday, but instead I ended using half the day trying to buy air tickets.... Alhamdulillah I managed to get hold on them and my travel is now official Time has gone by so quickly. Its already 3 months since I came back to morocco. 3 months where we have been preparing for our new life. Now time has come and it is time for me to leave to start my education. There is a lot to prepare, both here and in Denmark, and while trying to prepare everything I also need to be fully available for my family. Emotions is running a bit high at the moment . Even if i'm only going to be away for around a month, it is still long time now when My baby is still small. My toddler to young to understand that mama is coming back soon, and the big once afraid that I Will end up stuck in Denmark long time like last year. While i'm trying to cope with all the kids emotional break outs, I also have to control my own. Its really difficult to stay strong a